Monday, November 02, 2009

Another resignation

Another resignation by a dear friend. Which makes them three in the past three months.

I admire their courage. To leave and give priority to what really matters and what gives them that sense of satisfaction.

Harith will be 4 months this Friday. The past 2 months, I have only bathed him twice. It's like no matter what I resolve to do, fatigue rules my decisions.

I am so divided....and after what I have been observing, this is a lose-lose value proposition.

Sunday, November 01, 2009

31st October 1992


That was the day 17 years ago when we said our vows to each other. Or so to speak.

Four children later, we are still together. I pray that we still will be until death do us part.

He is the wall I lean on, the sturdy one.

I had completely forgotten this day until my kids reminded me. An indication of how preoccupied my mind was with things that seems so unimportant now.

Loving you always, Happy Anniversary!

A New Spirit

I have decided to create a new blog. A new blog en route to a new me that is no longer defined by what I do for a living.

Enough is enough.

Acceptance and learning to let go

I was upset over a situation at work. And I kept thinking about this situation over and over again this weekend, venting my frustration with totally unrelated subjects relating to the recent organizational change.

I think the only solace to this is to accept this and move on. Learning to let go of expectations that I set for myself. Learning to let go that this is part of life ups and downs. Learning to let go that my role demands me to be different. The wheel of life, as my friend MG so aptly puts it as the title to her blog.

In self-reflecting my years in this organization, the organization has given me much and taken much. Balancing work and family is only a dream. In wanting financial security, I have been relentless in my pursuit of differentiation and improvements. Only to find that over time that becomes expected and the organization keeps pushing for more. Where does it stop?