I am awake since 5 am and not much of a sleep since 2:40 am. Sleep evades me at this point and I didn't want to take the sleeping tablet anymore last night. I thought I would tire myself out and would be able to sleep naturally. Wrong! After watching the Federer vs. Roddick Wimbledon final, there was no way I could sleep.
In 10 minutes, I will go downstairs and have a hot drink and some oatmeal before the fasting begins at 6am.
Today, I am as ready as can be. My flu is gone with the occasional cough to clear my throat. Feels like there is phlegm but really when I spit it out, it looks more like saliva than anything else. The big sh*ve has been done, my bags are packed, MrM has yet to pack his since this time around I insist that he spends the night with me in the hospital until I am confident enough to get out of bed post delivery myself. This little one was doing somersaults in there even at 3am and I can feel him move even as I type. We have not decided on names yet even though the one that I wanted is still what I fancy calling this baby. The name would most probably still begins with an A. Munirah will always be the unique child in this family whose name begins with an M.
As I write away, and after loads of assurance from friends and family, I am calm and stil a teeny-weeny bit anxious over the procedure today. I felt the same way when being prepped for Aliah's delivery in 2000 and everything turned out all right. The c-section, according to the doctor will take longer because of previous scars and also the tubal ligation that he will do after th baby is born. I have had suturing done on my c-section wound post Munirah's birth and that I was even more nervous than this. And I was 29 then. Being this age I have to admit that I already know what it entails and Dr Nik has always done a good stitching up from my experience with him during Zarif and Aliah's births.
I am thankful for this experience and the only complaints that I have is fatigue and nausea. I am thankful for the ability to withstand all that and the good health evidenced from blood pressure, sugar levels and urine content.
Going downstairs for breakfast now. My stomach is already growling!
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2 comments:
GOod luck Dila.. though you won't be reading this til u get home..
dila, i know you're home now. have a good rest and let your Mr M tend to baby at night ya :)
ps - i just realized that your baby shares the same birthday as arwah jojay...i dont know why his birth date still stick in my mind..LOL!
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