What matters most

I just had a performance review session with my superior today. I am inclined to believe that the more you do in this organization, the more it becomes normal and expected and that does not constitute good performance, let alone exceed requirements or outstanding.

At this age and perhaps more so, being preggers, makes me question what matters most. Performance in the office, performance as a wife, daughter and mother, or performance in the eyes of God. One can say that what we do in this life, office or home, all constitutes getting brownie points for your life in the next world. It is getting tougher to balance all three and I tend to sacrifice one for the other.

With a pending new boss and reporting line, a new baby, I am not sure I am capable emotionally to continue with the expectations that has been set for me in my current capacity. Capable refers not to the job but making sacrifices that comes with the job.

I do hope I made and continue to make the right decisioins for me and my family.