Inspiration is difficult to find these days, avoiding me like a plague. That explains my lack of wanting to write anything in this blog. I attribute this to the fact that at this juncture of my life and by that I mean age, career, kids, husband and all that I have going on right now, I am searching for a "something" that changes this monotony.
When in fact that "something" is all in my mind.
MrM has been on my case lately, criticizing everything that I do or don't do and never a word of praise for things that gets done. I am angry with him when he says I am never there when I am at home and by that he means my mind. I am angry with him that when I buy food for break fast and all he sees is the fact that the food is not enough to cater for all when food is aplenty and none have gone hungry. I am angry when he says I never follow up on anything and question my priorities.
I finally told MrM that he has not been treating me well. He said he can change but hey certain traits are so ingrained in you and I know that change is not easy for an opinionated 44 year old father or four!
Sigh!
Count my blessings Adila.....he is a responsible father and husband. He provides for all of us, he pays for his share of household expenditures, he likes to tinker around the house (instead of tinkering with women) and he loves his kids as much as you do. And he loves me (or so I think!)
I just needed to vent this out of my system!
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