Sleeping bliss

The weekend has been spent recuperating from the lack of sleep the week before by sleeping with a vengeance. The weather is just conducive for sleeping. And this is to prepare myself for the week ahead.

I managed to do some work, still falling short of one huge deliverable that is due by this month. This I managed to do in the midst of supervising kids with their revisions. What can I do? I don't consistently monitor their homework or revisions on a daily basis. Most times I am too tired to do anything when I get home. Zarif needs a bit of coaching in Maths and BM. Especially with Std 5 fractions. He hates Maths and already forms a mental block to that subject. Even though he can actually solve mathematical problems, he says he can't because of this mental block. In BM he seems to be doing all right with Tatabahasa but struggles with the Bina Ayat and Karangan bit. And I make things worse by telling him "ha, dah tak baca buku macamana nak cari idea nak buat karangan!"

Munirah on the other hand loves Maths and always excelled in this subject. When I say excelled tu, she gets As laa most of the time tapi not lah 100% type of As.

Which brings me to the next point and frustration I have with the emphasis of our education system these days. Getting 8As is sooo important relative to seeing the incremental improvements in students. Kalau tak dapat 8As, then you have not arrived? Arrived where? I have interviewed many fresh graduates and experienced people, and I can say that what gets you into the organization is no 1, ability to communicate, no 2 one's breadth and depth in analytical thinking (not in Maths or Science) in doing the case study. Then we look at your credentials. But credentials alone are not enough maaa.....

Anyway back to where I was. Sometimes I feel so stretched in terms of the amount that I have on my plate relative to certain others. I think maybe I am not working smart or even perhaps setting too high an expectation on myself. It is that. I know that I do set high expectations on FRM staff in terms of responsiveness to clients, analytical capabilities, problem solving, process orientation, writing and communication skills, but I have been subject to such standards myself when I was younger reporting to "not easy to please" bosses. And I don't think I am alone here.

Enough on work. Work is work and will never end. Although I am thankful to still have a job given the state of the global and local economy, as MrM always say "you don't have to sell your soul to your work". Hmmm......if that is the case, is it any wonder why MrM always asks if I am listening to what the kids or he is saying (as in knock! knock! are you there?). My soul is never at peace because work beckons.....

Can I leave this job and bake muffins and decorated cupcakes for a living?