Productivity and My Moods

I am inclined to believe that productivity at this age seems more effective when done through people.  But stewardship at this juncture of my career is a given.  Then how am I judged?  Judged by my ability to identify the next leap for FRM or the incremental 10% to 15% that we have been delivering?

With such a responsibility, my mood towards work wavering, and reality sinking in that I need to maintain a certain level of productivity to remain relevant.

Some people do little leaps and clap! clap! clap! that was such good performance.  I do little leaps and what?  that just meets requirement.  Some people steal ideas and call it theirs and again clap! clap! clap! that was a strategic alignment towards what we want to be.  I call that idea originated from FRM and they say, why are we keeping scores?  after all we need to work as a team to achieve common objectives....

Now you understand my ambivalence towards this environment where I am supposed to earn a living.....and I guess as leaders you need to lie, be selfish and opportunistic, not really do the right things.....